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We Sink or Swim



Working my new job in the ER for the past 10 months has been taxing but very satisfying, too. There is a mild panic that sets in every time I punch in to work, and I have no real choice but to embrace my oncoming panic and do what I can to hide it deep down.  I work in a city where we see just about everything you can imagine, and the more that I learn and become qualified to perform, the more people depend on my decisions.  I have a hard time figuring out if I brushed my teeth in the morning, and yet I attend a job where I literally (help) make life improving/altering choices.


I know that I like my job.  I love it when I can help someone become well enough that they don’t have to spend any more time in the hospital. I hate being attacked by patients.  I hate having to explain to an angry person why they have failing health.  And although I dread the arrival of “level 1 trauma” patients, I have learned to internalize it all.  I am not sure if that is a good thing.  I am not sure I am cut out for Emergency medicine.  But I know that I am getting better at being a nurse.  I just hope its enough.



Things are getting set up for an ALL NEW AND IMPROVED SCENT for my blog.  There really isn’t much to get too excited over at the moment…. I just changed my site over to a more friendly hosting company, so that is a start.
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